i'm just so confused

all the time

its like i'm the rope in tug of war

being pulled and pulled until i –

i just fray apart.


it terrifies me,

the thought of unraveling.

i'm supposed to be the strong one,


not allowed to cry.

it just doesn't

fit the description.


holding it all in,

until i wear away,

nothing left but threads

of my past misery