My Suicide

By Andrea Cox

Darkness creeps

From the corners of my mind

You left me alone

Here by myself

Awake in the night

I told you I loved you

And what did you do?

You shoved me away

And ran to him

What's wrong with me?

Why did you run?

Was it something I did?

Was it something I said?

It doesn't matter now

When the days of happiness

Are long gone.

You took my light

When you left me for him.

Did you know that?

Did you care?

So now I'm alone

In this cold, dark room

That reminds me of you

A knife in my hand

A pain in my heart

Even this can't ease it.

It over whelms me

Pushing me over.

I chuckle light

Is that you I hear?

Running up the stairs.

He's at your heels

Like he always is

Oh how I wish that could be me.

You open the door

Don't bother knocking

You gasp at the look of my body.

I'm covered with cuts.

Blood leaking onto the floor.

Does this make you happy?

Is this what you wanted?

For my heart to bleed until it could bleed no more?

I chuckle weakly once more.

As tears stream down your face.

Do you actually care?

Or is this a game?

I don't really have time to think about it.

As my mind becomes fuzzy

You beg me to stay

You pray and you plead.

You tell me you love me.

Really what a shame

You're too late

My once beloved

As I whisper these words

Listen close now.

You are my pain

And this is my Suicide