im tired.

so tired.

my eyes feel like

theyre holding weights.

im not tired.

im not even exhausted.

i passed that point

five days ago.

tomorrow, it will be

a week since i last

slept.

im dead.

lifeless.

bloody.

shaking.

scared.

im scared that if

i close my eyes

ill lose you

all over again.

im so silly,

this is all so

damn

silly.

youre dead and

im dying.

the same way,

too.

im so sleepy.

im drifting

away

from myself.

and the thing is?

i dont mind.