Jerk to look at him,

blink sleepily.


"You okay?"

Watch as Jessica laughs without you,

always without you.

Pause, breathe.


He stares at you, and

you stare away.

"It's just… you're quiet"

"I don't have to be loud all the time"

"No, I know that… but, are you sure?"

Rest your head back, close your eyes.

Still can hear the laughing.



"Of what?"

"That you're okay"



Pause, breathe.

"… Oh"

Cross ankles,

watch the world blur by.

"Never mind."



Turn to look at him.

His eyes are dark.

"Smile, please"

Attempt it,

wince at how fake it feels.


He stares at you,

pauses, breathes