Have you ever noticed that four out of five times, an attempted suicide in a movie is carried out by jumping off of something? The other one is usually OD'ing. But seriously, why is that? Is it so other characters can "lead them off the ledge"? Most likely. Because that's always what happens. Someone finds them, talks them out of jumping, and then convinces them that their life really isn't as bad as they thought. Titanic. It's a Wonderful Life. Or, the character is too scared to go through with it, and comes off the ledge crying. Like Jenny in Forrest Gump. Either way, it's always on a ledge of some sort, isn't it? But now I'm starting to realize that that ledge isn't always as literal as in the movies. There's this beautiful song, Who I am Hates Who I've Been, by Relient K, and there's a really beautiful line. "I watched the proverbial sunrise, rising up over the Pacific". Well, I'm on my proverbial ledge at this point, and I don't see anyone in sight to coax me off of it. And I don't see anyone noticing either. Like Rose, in Titanic, "I feel like I'm in a crowded room screaming at the top of my lungs, and no one can hear me." All I've got is music, and this song explains it all.
I watched the proverbial sunrise 'cause I don't want you to know where I am This is no place to try and live my life.
Coming up over the Pacific and
You might think I'm losing my mind,
But I will shy away from the specifics...
'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.
It really isn't. I wish my knight-in-shining-armor would come and sweep me off of this ledge. Hell, I'd take a jockey-in-tinfoil at this point. But no-oo. I have to get myself off of this ledge.