I hate my life. It's so twisted and awful in so many ways, the fact that everyone wanted me dead. Or most of the people I knew, and worse yet it was my family that wanted me dead. My brother and sisters, everyone despises me. I wish Jason was here, he'd be here for me. He said he loved me, but even he left me here. I wish I never told him to leave; I can't handle all of this. The lies the hurts the twists and turns, Cody and Jason. It was all too much. I want it all to end. I need it all to end.

My hand feels heavy though it only holds two bottles of pills, I've never considered this before because I've been too scared to die, too scared of what would happen if I tried what I was about to do. I know in my heart it was wrong to kill yourself but there just wasn't another way out. If there was I certainly couldn't find one. I'd been through so much in the last year and it's mostly because of the secret that shouldn't have been a secret. It should've been let known a long time ago, but who am I to judge. I'm the devil's spawn that was created by two sinners. I've been called a bastard child by my family. I should end it, to save my family the embarrassment of having me in it. Cody's denial, Jason leaving, my entire family hating me; it all added up and I can't take it anymore.

My room is cold like how my body feels, I guess it's fitting to how I'm going to be in a few hours. I wonder if my mom will miss me. She abandoned me as soon as He said to leave me. I can't believe how my life has turned out it was fine then everything blows up, everything. Just thinking about it all makes my heart ache, the love I've lost the love I've received and then it was stolen away twice. I opened the first bottle of pills.

I hear the front door open. Here it goes.

One after another they go down my throat, slower as more goes in. My life is now over. All I have to do now is wait. I close my eyes just waiting for the darkness that is my life to swallow me. It'll be all over. My brother won't miss me, my sisters won't; neither will my parents. No one cares, no one cares. I vaguely here someone get in the shower. A shower sounds nice, water. My throat is dry as I reach for a cup of water on my nightstand. I've never like water so much. I close my eyes and just lay there I don't know if what I did was right but I can't take it back now. All there is to do now is to wait. Two pictures on my night stand catch my eye, one is of Cody and I after a funeral. The other was of me and Jason before all of this even started. I had tried, I had tried so hard. I squeeze my eyes shut trying to stop crying. It doesn't work very well. I open my eyes one last time and look at the picture again.

"Bye," I close my eyes one last time and then a few minutes later everything goes black.



(A/N) :Hello! How is everybody? I hope you enjoyed this, I'm trying to work on my writing skills and plan on writing as much as I can while I'm on a writing high. I know this is short but originally this was apart of the first chapter but I wanted to make it just the opening. Anyway I hope you liked it please let me know! :D

(Okay, this is random but this was recently edited. To fit the story better. 5/9/17)