_His Future Is Shadowed_

Chapter I

_Voices_

"You got your rules and your religion
All designed to keep you safe
...
But when rules start getting broken
You start questioning your faith...
I have a voice that is my savior
Hates to love and loves to hate...
I have the voice that has the knowledge
And the power to rule your fate
..."

Author's Note: This is the first in a multi-chapter series called: "His Future Is Shadowed"... The inspiration for the story is a dream that I had over a year ago. Aspects of my own psyche make up a good deal of the structure of the story...

Author's Note 2: A special feature at the start of each chapter will be a set of lyrics from a song of my choosing. The lyrics correspond to the title and content of each chapter...

Author's Note 3: This first chapter is a dream sequence...Italics represent character's thoughts, bold represents other thoughts, bold italics are for dream thoughts...

They're all I hear now. The screaming. The voices. My voice. At least what's left of it. What have I become? What kind of creature have I become? It feels like my soul is gone...What is joy, what is pain, what is emotion to me now? They all feel the same...blinding, searing, gnawing pain tearing away at my bones, flaying my flesh, slowly eating me alive from the inside out. I think I was alive...once, but being dead can't be much worse...right? Why are they covered in blood? Whose blood is it, theirs... mine...maybe everyone...Like a sea of blood washing over me...But my family, my friends...they've been dead for centuries...hundreds of centuries. Even their memories are screaming. I can't I can't...So... cold... alone...laughter...blood...fire...darkness...I don't want to keep living. It's not worth it anymore. I can't feel anything anymore except fear, pain, frustration, anger, and overwhelming emptiness. I feel hollow, like an empty vessel, devoid of life and emotion. If only I could sleep, but even this eludes me. I feel like I've been awake for millions of years. It feels like torture all the time... Unbearable torture... Where are my family, my friends...where is my peace? What peace? Only a fool can find peace, except in death... But even death can't save me, can't grant me salvation from myself, from the crushing darkness, the nothingness...Or can it? Stop laughing at me...STOP LAUGHING AT ME! Fine I'll kill you myself...you can't catch me...yes I will...no you won't...yes I will...keep him under...stop squirming...it'll all be over soon...please don't kill me...up the dose...I'll be a good boy...no you won't...inject him again...I have to stop you...burn you filthy monster...no you first...stay away... must kill you...then everyone I get my hands on...I must stop you...you die now...I'll rip your eyes out...he mustn't wake up...your heart is mine...mine...no one cares...I'll bury you...he's resisting... enjoy death...keep him under...tick...tick...tick...redirect now ...redirecting... tick...tick...tick...five...tick...tick... tick...four...tick...tick...tick...three...tick...tick...tick...two...tick...tick...tick...one...it's time...no...wake up!... No...Wake Up!...NO...WAKE UP!...NO!...please...don't let me wake up...

Lyrics are from the song "Voices" by Revelation Theory