**this story is also on under the same name and cover and the same user name as it is here.

*unknown point of view

Looking at my *Corazon I couldn't help but wonder why it has to be so hard? I had to stage it to where she would see me in another woman's embrace so she would get hurt and leave. I knew she wouldn't believe me if I had just told her the truth. We couldn't be together I knew she would have ended up getting hurt being with me. I would always disappoint her and I would never be enough. One day that will change though. I will come back and claim my Corazon. Turning around with that thought in my head I took off towards to my new destination to plot my future. If I came back I just hoped she would understand.

You took away my life.

When I look in the mirror all I see is this monster I have become.

I was young, and innocent.

You took away my innocence,

You shattered it on the ground.

My heart was yours for the taking,

I told you it was fragile.

The moment I gave it away I could feel it shatter.

You took away my youth,

I wanted safety,

All I wanted was safety from the reality of it all.

A scream worked its way out of my mouth,

You laughed in my face, while the tears streamed down.

How could you do it?

Did you not know?

Everything that is me was yours.

You threw it all away like yesterday's trash.

I was young, and naive

To believe it could last.

Every lie you whispered to me,

I took it and held on fast.

Everything you whispered in my ear,

I believed for a time.

Everything I wished for you were for a while.

A knight in shining armor coming to rescue the princess is what I believed you were.

Too bad for me I wasn't a princess and you were a fool wrapped in aluminum foil.

Did you not know exactly what would happen?

Did you not know that I was simply waiting?

Waiting on you, for the chances I never had.

You took away everything, and left me an empty shell.

Did you know that when I saw you with her, I felt like crying?

Did you not know something was wrong when you walked in the door?

I could smell her perfume upon your shirt.

Too bad happily ever after's hardly last forever.

I'm writing this to let you go,

I'm writing this for my peace,

I'm writing this so you know,

I forgive you for everything.

I took a look at the poem I quickly jotted down, re-reading my words for some reason the last four lines sticking in my head. I can't believe I was so stupid for believing in his lies. The worst part is I have already forgiven him for everything. Does that say something about me that I forgive too easy?

Let me tell you something, no matter how guarded you become, you still get hurt. It doesn't matter how much you build up them walls, someone always comes along and breaks them down. Hell I should know, ever since certain things had happened I built my walls up and didn't let anybody through them. My knight in shining aluminum fool broke them down and now I'm forced to re-build them.

You are probably wondering who I am and what I'm rambling on about. The easiest way to tell you is to start at the beginning. You know how when you start reading a book and you get to the really boring part that tells you all about the person? Well we have come upon that part much to yours and my dismay. I'm not going to lie; I'm going to tell you what you absolutely need to know. A girl is allowed to have her secrets too.

My name is Catherine Renee Ripley I live in a little place called Grizzly. I have lived with my three brothers since I was fourteen and our parents died in a plane crash. That was the stories the detectives told us anyway. All my family knows that's a load of shit, our dad was very careful when mom was on the plane with him. He always called her his mate just like the majestic wolfs he adored. He wouldn't have taken that chance with her not to be careful. To tell you a secret I was always jealous of my parents and the love they shared. I mean who honestly believes that they can find a love that is so whole and so pure anymore? I'm a senior in high school and my best friends are my annoying but oh so wonderful brothers. The oldest is max he is twenty four years old. Then there is Justin he is twenty-one. Last but not least there is Adam he is closer to my age being nineteen and all. Being so close in age's means that we are closer than normal siblings would be. See the thing you have to understand about me is that no matter where I am or where I end up I run back to my brothers.

I guess this is the part where I tell you what I was talking about with that poem. You see i am like almost every other girl out there. I dreamed about this mystery man I kept running to in my dreams. Only I didn't know that he was real. Well not real, but I made a friend who in time became my best friend. He had some of the qualities of that dream man. His name was Drew; he disappeared not too long ago.

We met at school he was the new guy everybody was talking about. It was the start of a new year, and everybody knew everybody. There were your normal stereotyped groups such as the jocks, the cheerleaders, the bookworms, the goody two shoes. I'm not into stereo typing I was just saying that's what everyone else is saying about certain groups of people.

I heard my name over the loud speaker while I was in English class. "Catherine Ripley please report to the principal's office immediately." Everyone in class started booing and shouting after me teacher's pet and other names such as that. I long ago stopped letting it bother me. As I walked down the halls towards the office I saw the principal and this most amazing looking guy I have ever seen.

He had black hair, falling in a short spikey manner, the most piercing blue eyes I have ever seen. He had the body of a swimmer and he was dressed in a black t-shirt and black cargo pants. He also had ear buds in his ears and when he saw me he started to smile but that smile soon turned into a look of disappointment. So engrossed in my examination I didn't notice the principal Mr. Reeds had started to speak.

"Miss, Ripley will you please be so kind to show Mr. Maddox here to his classes. If I'm not mistaken you have all the same classes so it shouldn't be too hard. I have done explained everything else to him so that will be all." Yes sir, Mr. Reeds I'd be happy to.

Walking back towards English I expected to hear footsteps behind me and when I didn't I turned around and saw him standing in the same spot as he was when I started walking. I didn't have time for slow ass people. I needed to finish out this year so everything would go according to plan. Yes I'm a bit uptight but I had to be to get away from the house I was in, loved my brothers to death but I needed to get away from them for a while.

Walking back toward him I saw a smart ass smirk on his face and for all I was worth all I wanted to do was knock it off his face. Looking up at his face when I got in front of him I asked him what exactly he thought he was doing. That is when he grabbed me around the waist and pulled me flush with his body and kissed me full on the lips. When he let me pull back I let my arm fly with my hand balled up into a fist and hit him straight in the nose. Why the hell did you do that for! I screamed. "You just looked so adorable I had to do it, it was worth a punch though even if it didn't hurt much. "Then he started walking down the tiled brown hallway I was on my way down when I had to turn back because of him.

Do you really think I'm adorable I asked hesitantly? "Yea, I do. So what class we headed to Corazon?" English, what does Corazon mean? "Really English, bleh can we skip? Corazon means heart in Spanish since I didn't know your name I figured I'd call you that, he said with a smile. "My name is Catherine what's yours? And no we can't skip since I left they know I'm here today and I don't feel like getting four months detention just because new guy doesn't want to go to English. Arriving at the class and opening the door cut off his reply as I walked back to my desk and new guy came in I saw every girl in the class jaws drop. He was looking good. So I can't blame them but my heart started to speed up when he threw them a crooked smile and strutted over to the empty seat beside me.

"Mr. Maddox would you care to grab a book and join the rest of the class" BBBBBBRRRRRRRIIIIIINNNNNNNGG GGGGG" I would love to but it seems as if that was the bell signaling the end of class." By that time it was only him, me and the teacher in the classroom, and she just stared at him with an open mouth. As he was walking by her he gently pushed her mouth closed and said, "Close your mouth dear flies with fly in and that's a horrible taste." Grabbing my stuff I ran out the door behind him laughing at the expression on Mrs. Sue's expression on her face.

"Well that was the last class of the day so I'll meet up with you tomorrow and show you where all your classes are at, I said walking towards the door. " "I'd love that my little Corazon." he replied slipping out the quickly shutting door.

Walking toward my beat up blue ford car, I heard the taunts of my peers follow me screaming. "You should go off yourself so nobody will have to look at your ugly face anymore. "Why, do you show up day after day, just to show us your fat cow body? "OH and there is my personal favorite of the cheerleaders at my school. "No matter if you get your nose out of that book and starve yourself, you will never look as sexy as me." I wonder if they realize that what they say has little effect over me. After my parents died I went from the top of the food chain at my run down, shabby school to the bottom of the social ladder.

Pulling out of the parking lot I turned up the avenged sevenfold almost easy song on the radio.

I feel insane every single time

I'm asked to compromise

Cause I'm afraid and stuck in my ways

And that's the way it stays

So how long did I expect love to outweigh ignorance?

By that look on your face I may have forced the scale to tip

I'm not insane, I'm not insane

I'm not insane, I'm not - not insane


Come back to me, it's almost easy

(Said it all)

Come back again, it's almost easy

Shame pulses through my heart

From the things I've done to you

It's hard to face, but the fact remains

That this is nothing new

I left you bound and tied with suicidal memories

Selfish beneath the skin

But deep inside I'm not insane.

I'm not insane, I'm not insane.

I'm not insane, I'm not - not insane.


Come back to me, it's almost easy

(Said it all)

Come back again, it's almost easy

(You'll learn your lesson)

Come back to me, it's almost easy

(But first you'll fall)

Come back again, it's almost easy

Now that I've lost you it kills me to say

(Hurts to say)

I've tried to hold on as you've slowly slipped away.

I'm losing the fight.

I've treated you so wrong; now let me make it right.

(Make it all right)

I'm not insane, I'm not insane. Ha Ha Ha Ha Ha

I'm not insane, I'm not - not insane.


Come back to me, it's almost easy

(Said it all)

Come back again, it's almost easy

(You'll learn your lesson)

Come back to me, it's almost easy

(But first you'll fall)

Come back again, it's almost easy

Singing along with the lyrics for the entire five minute ride home it started to go off as soon as I turned into my driveway.

I saw my brothers pouring out of the house as soon as my car rolled to a stop. Max with his unruly blonde hair and his dark brown eyes came towards me flashing with anger. I knew I didn't do anything wrong so it made me wonder what was wrong. Especially when I saw his tall stocky frame shaking with anger. Justice and Adam both had black hair and a smokey gray color eyes. Their eyes just sparkled with amusement not anger unlike Max's. Pulling open my car door and stepping out max started yelling at Justine.

"YOU LET THAT NO GOOD MANGY DOG IN MY BEDROOM AFTER I HAD JUST CLEANED IT!" shaking my head I made my way in between the two brothers and asked what was going on even though I had it mostly figured out. Justin or Adam must have picked up a stray dog on the road home from their job. Adam Justin which one of you put the dog in max's room after he cleaned it? I asked with a serious face while trying not to crack up at the thought of it. They both looked at me and hollered he did! While running into the house. I just shook my head while following them to see this dog they made so much commotion about.

Walking in the open door I pushed the silver steel door shut behind me. Looking up toward the balcony where my brother's voices were carrying over from I just shook my head and walked to the kitchen to get something to eat. Glancing around this place reminded me so much of my mom. She loved to cook and bake and anything else to do with the kitchen. Our kitchen was filled with stainless steel counters and sink while the stove top, dishwasher, and everything else was state of the art. Like I said my dad loved my mom and no matter how much something was he would get it for her like this house. It was a Victorian styled house built with bricks of a light burgundy color. While the inside was decked out in a game room, a home theater, six bedrooms all with their own bathrooms and walk in closets. To say my house was expensive is an understatement. I honestly don't know how they afforded it when they first got together.

Hearing footsteps I turned back to the fridge and grabbed some milk and Oreos. Turning towards the table I had just sat down when a familiar looking face snatched an Oreo from me. I gasped and said "what are you doing here I left you at school?" "I'm renting one of the two bedrooms from your brother max."

**the song almost easy IS NOT mine. im just using the lyrics in my story. if you wish to look up the song than it is almost easy by-avenged sevenfold**