no, really,
things could not be worse.
it's as if the whole world is against me.
the whole entire world.

am i not worth the truth? am i
so incredibly worthless that even
the truth
is too much for you to give?

of course you'll lie. you'll lie until
i beat it or cry it or scream it
out of you.

& then you'll say something like
"i didn't want to hurt you"—lying
through your fucking perfect teeth.
if you really didn't want to hurt me

you wouldn't have lied in the first place.

is this the moment where
the clouds part & the sun begins to shine or

is this just another shitty day
that it's going to rain?

i'm beginning to wish that i'd never even met you.