Why can I not hold in these useless tears?
As I don't even know why I'm crying
How absurd, they fall in silent clear smears
Maybe my smiles I'm indemnifying
Why can't I hold at bay my useless fears?
I'm not entirely sure what they may be
As hard as I try, they have persevered
They found it as easy as 1, 2, 3
Don't get me wrong, I don't think I'm depressed
I just feel hopelessly sad and lonely
I do reach highs among the lows at best
Its a secret I used to guard closely
My emotions balanced on a knife edge
Please don't let me fall off the narrow ledge
_,∙~* thoughts of mine *~∙,_
I wrote this one when I wrote sonnet 20. I was filled with sorrow when I wrote them, but as I said writing is therapeutic and I honestly felt better after I wrote them.
My use of the word 'indemnifying' isn't really accurate, I use it to mean that I think I may be compensating for being so happy.
I promise my next post will be happier :) but tell me what you think of this sonnet/post