Strength is a relative term. It's different for everyone. This is something I've come to realize recently. I've always thought of myself as a strong person, and I still think I am, but we all have moments of weakness. Even those moments are different for everyone. Mine was that I fell apart. I lost some one I love very much. He doesn't want me anymore, and that hurts more than I can ever express, but I lost it. I sank lower than I ever have before. I felt weak. I told myself that I was strong, because I was getting up everyday and dealing with it. I got up in the morning, hid my pain, and hung on my friends like a leech. I thought that made me strong. I thought I was strong because I was hiding and surviving by myself. I was making it through for the most part on my own, with help from my friends. I felt weak when I talked to them about it. I didn't realized that doing that, trying to make it on my own, is what made me weak. For someone like me, who is unbelievably proud and independent to a fault, true strength was in admitting I need help. I put it off for a long time, because I didn't want to admit that I couldn't do it.

I didn't want to give up, but giving up isn't always bad. Sometimes we need to take a step back and say "Is this really what's best for me?" and if it's not, then we should abandon those harmful situations. Strength lies in the ability to let things go. To be able to make the tough decisions, that you may not want to make. I don't want to give up on my dream of going to a university away from home, but I need to. I don't want to admit that I am really not ok and that I need help, but I have to in order to make an improvement in my life. That's where my strength comes from. In admitting I can't do this by myself.

Strength is different for everyone. For one person, it might be asking for help. For another, it might be taking that step and doing things on your own. Maybe strength for you is stepping outside of your comfort zone, or admitting you were wrong. Maybe strength for you is getting out of bed in the morning, I don't know. Strength is different for every person and every situation, and there's nothing wrong with contradicting yourself every once in a while in order to be strong for yourself or someone else, in any given moment.