She knew it was a mistake
The first time she kissed him.
As she felt the coarseness
Of his facial hair,
His past life echoed in her mind.
She remembers the girlfriend
He still was always around.
It was a moment of foreshadowing,
A moment which she ignored.
They broke up a few short weeks
After their first kiss.
She had been the one to
Instigate it; he'd been with her.
She'd caught them spending
Way too much time together.
In anger, she'd broken up with him.
They would never officially date,
But he was still always around.
Secretly, she continued to love him.
There were many days where
They would just get away,
Spend the whole day together.
They'd discover a secret place
Where they were only allowed
To be together.
Nobody else was to know.
It was a beautiful location.
But, every time, he broke her heart.
Even if it was just a little,
She'd leave feeling more lost
Than put together.
On one occasion, when they were
Fighting, about her,
She ran from him, sprinting
In flip flops across a parking lot.
He ran to her and caught her,
Keeping her from getting far.
At first, she resisted,
But then succumbed to his kisses.
His kisses intoxicated her.
But, she couldn't take this
Broken relationship any longer.
They couldn't keep kissing
If he was always around her,
And they were never dating.
She moved on, found someone else.
Their relationship wouldn't work,
But he was safer.
For a short while, she felt safe.
But, he was back after a while.
He told her constantly how
He never approved of her boyfriend.
She'd try to pretend that
Everything was perfect between them
When really, it wasn't.
She wouldn't realize how toxic
A friendship with him could be
Until she realized her phone background
Was a picture of them,
At their secret spot.
Her boyfriend and her split,
Because they weren't working.
They'd eventually become friends again
After they'd have a while to cool down.
She found her prince charming
Through one of her friends.
She began dating him.
Once again, he showed up.
He told her how much he hated her boyfriend,
Sending her drunken texts about
How much he loved her.
The thing was, she hated him now.
Her boyfriend was all she ever wanted,
One day, as he told her off,
She screamed at him, telling him
She never wanted to see his face
Ever again. Her boyfriend
Was the first she told, and he
Held her as she cried,
Terrified of the man
For not the first time in her life.
Every night, she knew he drove
By her house. He'd told her that once.
If she heard a car go speeding past,
She'd text her boyfriend,
And he would comfort her until
Sleep finally took over her
And her tears had dried.
The last night she ever heard from him
Was when he texted her randomly,
At 2:30 A.M. It was to win her back.
He went on and on and on
About how much he still loved her,
And that he realized why she
Hated him so fucking much.
When she woke up and found the text,
She threw her phone against the wall,
Immediately picking it back up
To text her boyfriend.
He'd mentally scarred her,
Leaving her terrified if she saw
Someone looking remotely like him.
He was her nightmare
The one that formed in the
Darkest corners of her dreams.