Chapter 1: The Beginning of the End

What? What time do you think I have for this bullshit? After awhile I question everything about you, yet you are the answer. Stop your stupid nonsense and come to me. I know for sure I'm not the best person to cure every problem you have, but I know for a fact I'll love you and stay committed.

The moment you grab that girl's hand, pulling her back into your arms. The only thing I felt for myself was pity. That is one of the worse things you can feel about yourself.

She kept hitting your chest with her fist, crying.

You take all the hits and pain for this girl, yet you always come to me in need.

"What am I to you?" I wrote it out on the snow, as I wrap myself with the scarf you brought for me as a gift.

I took a deep breath and looked back to where you and the girl were at. You guys were gone.

"I guess I was too late, as usual." I sigh deeply down for my wounded heart to stop beating over hopeless excitement.

The snow kept falling, creating a layer of it on top of my head. I kick the snow around with annoyance, "Why!"

5 weeks later.

"Lucy, I'm going to purpose!" Aaron slam the door open with arms in the air.

"Really, when are you going to purpose?" I asked.

"Tomorrow I'm inviting her out to the restaurant where her father purpose to her mother."

"Aw, that's really sweet of you." I didn't know what to really say.

Aaron pulled out a ring box and opened it, "Do you think this is pretty enough for Julie?"

The ring was simple but stood on its own.

"I think it's really pretty." I closed the box quickly enough for me not to throw it across the room.

"Really?" Aaron wasn't sure.

"Trust me; you'll take her by surprise. She would be too surprise to say no."

Why didn't I tell him at that moment that I didn't want him to purpose to her?

"Okay, I prepared some lines but unsure if it works. Tell me what you think of it." Aaron drops to one knee and opens the ring box, "Julie, you have made me into a better person that I am now. Without you, I would be nothing. Will you marry me?"

That last line was the only line I could not bare to hear from him. I just stood there for a couple of seconds, trying to process things.

"What do you think?" Aaron was still down on one knee.

"Fix your posture."

"Okay…" Aaron was still waiting for the right reply.

"It's good but…don't just say those lines. Put some more meaning into it. Kind of like, juice it up to make it sweeter. It's too quick and clique." I came back to reality, just in time.

"You don't know how many times I've rewritten those lines…just image me doing my vows." Aaron laughed.

"Why don't you think of everything on the spot? Because that feeling of being with that person right in front of you can make you say a whole lot of meaningful things automatically."

"That's a good idea; I'll use that for back-up." Aaron jump to his feet, "Thank you, Lucy."

"You're welcome and don't feel nervous! Women like confident men when it comes to these things." I smiled.

But then again, I love seeing him happy. I want him to be with someone he really loves and I don't have the confidence that he'll like me back.