It's the worst kind of feeling

Saying goodbye

You say it like a wish

Or maybe a hope

It's a prayer and a plead

That it won't be the last goodbye

It's the worst kind of feeling

Watching them walk away

Never knowing

When you'll see them again

Never knowing if

When you do they'll still be alive

Your two knights in shining armor

The two who will always be there for you because honestly

They don't have a choice

Your two big brothers

Sure they have their faults

I mean everyone does right

And maybe they're missing their white horses

But I've never met a boy who wasn't

And so it's still the worst kind of feeling

Never knowing

What bruises what cuts

What burns David will

Show up with next

Because he's too nice to leave him

And maybe too scared

He won't find anyone else

It's the worst kind of feeling

Never knowing what kind

Of shit Jackson will get himself

Into next

And you try not to think about

How much worse that wreck

The other day could've been

Or the one before that

Or the one before that

And you know

The monsters in your closet

And the shadows creeping

Out from under your bed

Don't really scare you

All that much anymore

Because the boogyman

Has got nothing on

Your two knights in shining armor

The two are supposed

To always be there for you

Because they weren't supposed to

Have a choice

It's the worst kind of feeling

Watching them fall down your tower

Over and over again

Waiting for them until

You're positive this time

They'll give up

This time you'll be able

To close that door

So you can open a window

Only to watch them turn

Around and start all over

Again and again

Each time thinking this time

This time they'll reach the top

And I won't have to wait anymore

It's the worst kind of feeling

And the thing you hate most

Is how you just can't

Hate them for it.