Today...

Today I would be one more year older.

I would be 18.

Today is my 18th birthday...

It feels so strange.

That only a year has passed.

Only a year since my death.

Only a year...

I remember it like it was yesterday..

My boyfriend driving me home.

He...He hit a car.

And...we swerved..and...swerved...and swerved...

My body felt weightless... hitting he dash,then the door,then the window...then...

...then I felt nothing.

I died instantly...my boyfriend cracked a rib.

It's so like him..to be so insensitive.

I even remember the taste of my last breath..

blood and...and peppermint.

I began to rise away from my body...

I felt...I felt...I felt free...

My human body began to shrink under me...

The trees got smaller...

The stars in the sky started to disappear.

I kept rising up..and up..and up.

My white,transparent,bubbly self...my soul...was happy.

So happy.

But then...then I felt heavy.

I was not happy anymore.

I was not floating anymore.

I was not FREE anymore!

I fell...I fell...I fell.

The stars grew bigger and brighter...

Not quite beautiful...

Almost...rather threatening.

The ground got closer...

green grass,orange tree tops,my...

...my dismembered body.

I fell...I fell...I fell.

I fell through..my body.

I fell through..the grass.

I fell through..the earth.

I entered a place where I did not feel free.

I did not feel weightless.

I did not feel happy.

I entered a dark and frightening place.

I entered a dark and frightening place.

I entered a dark and frightening place.