I lied. I don't know why I did, but I did.

I said goodbye. I don't know why I did, but I did.

I wanted you gone. I don't know why, but I did.

I told you I had been fulfilled. You saw me. I said that was enough. But (I Lied.)
It will never be enough. You are my happiness. But I let you go.

I let you go.

We're better off without each other, I said.
Why would I do something so silly?
You're better off without me.

I'm nothing without you.

In all of those pictures, I was smiling.
Such a fake smile. But you didn't know.

You said I was so pretty.
You didn't understand why
I looked down on myself so much.

Can't you see?
It's reasons like letting you go
I look down on myself
so very much.

You were the best thing that's happened to me
since Erin and Hayley and Mikey
became a part
of my life.

And I let
you
go.

I let you go like
the mother fucker
I am.

I sat there acting like I was okay.
Like leaving you was fine.
I acted like I was happy.
(I Lied.)

Goodbye, Mariah.
I started to cry.
k bye
was all I could manage.

I bet you thought
that was me being snarky.
I couldn't manage to say
anything else.

Haha. And you asked me
why I looked down on myself so very much.

It's reasons like letting you go.

I said we were better off.

(I Lied.)

You're better off.