My alarm clock rang loudly in my ears but I couldn't find it in me to mind. Unlike the previous days I did not feel the need to press snooze. I blindly groped my bedside table until I found my alarm clock then I slammed my hand on top of to silence it.
I pushed back my comforter and stretched my arms above my head with a moan. I dangled my legs over the side of my bed and smiled brightly. The sun shined down on me through my window and today I was happy to see it Somehow today felt like it was going to be a good day.
I finger combed out the knots I had acquired during my heavy sleep and made my way toward my mirror. The dark circles that had accumulated over the last few days had vanished to my delight and my skin was clearer than usual. I smiled at my reflection.
Already my tan skin was fading and giving way to the pale skin below but I didn't mind. I liked the way my pale skin looked against my dark wavy hair. My hair brushed my lower back in a satisfying way and I promised myself I'd never cut it. I pulled my long locks up into a high pony and relished the way having it off my face felt.
I quickly applied mascara and foundation before stripping down to slip on my uniform. I glanced out my window and my heart fell to my stomach. I would have sworn I saw Liam peeking through his window just next door. I covered my chest with my arm and ran to my window to shut the curtains just to be sure. My heart raced beneath my chest and I willed it to slow and steady. I glanced behind them two more times before I convinced myself my eyes tricked me.
I pulled on my plaid skirt and my white blouse with precision that only comes from wearing the same outfit every day. I started to pull on a pair of heels when I changed my mind. Why wear heels when neither Liam or Alex will be at school? I pulled out a pair of worn out Chucks and sighed at the comfort they brought me.
I glanced back at my window one more time before opening my bedroom door and walking down stairs. I didn't bother to message Liam like I desperately did the last few days. I pushed him to the back of my mind until he was just an old memory and looked forward to today. I had better things and people to think about, I had Millie, and I hoped to have Alex.
The thought of Alex made me smile. The thought of doing something as simple as going out on a date with a cute boy made my heart race. Well, man I mean, Alex isn't much of a boy. I shook my head of that thought and pushed it to the back of my mind, a few years older was nothing I should concern myself with.
While Alex was on my mind I sent him a good morning text. I smiled down at my phone and grabbed my black backpack before walking out my front door and to my car. Noah's car was already missing from our driveway and it was safe to assume he was at practice. I tried to imagine how Liam was going to get away with missing practice for a whole week but I was sure he could weasel his way out of it like he always does.
I smacked the side of my head in frustration. How is it that every thought I have someone how makes its way back to Liam? I looked to his house a grumbled under my breath. While he was bumming it at home with not a care in the world, I was trying my best not to think of him. I knew he probably hadn't thought of me once in his absence. It all seemed so unfair. I also knew that flipping his house the middle finger was childish and pointless but I did it anyways.
I threw my bag into my passenger seat and then slipped inside. I slammed my car door shut behind me and drove toward my school.
Once I was parked in my usual spot I closed my eyes and took a deep relaxing breath. When I opened my eyes I felt lighter and I immediately put on a warm smile. Today would be good. My phone chimed and I dug through my backpack to find it.
Good morning beautiful. I hope u a good day at school. I can't wait to see you.
The smile I had forced onto my face morphed into a genuine one. It had been a long time since I'd been called beautiful, or even been missed. I shut my phone and tried to hold back the goofy grin that was plastered on my face.
Someone slapped their hand against my window and I jumped. Smile gone. I looked to my left to see my jubilant best friend. She bounced up and down on her toes and laughed at me for jumping. I opened my car door abruptly and hit her with it on purpose. The sour look on her face had me genuinely laughing and soon enough we both were. I closed my car door and hooked my arm in hers.
"I missed you Collins, I feel like it's been forever." I shook my head and tried my best not to feel guilty.
"You just saw me yesterday." She raised a single blonde brown in an accusatory manner.
"You know what I mean. You've been like a zombie the past few days." I cracked a small smile her way and shrugged in surrender.
"I know, I'm really sorry about that. I've just had a lot on my mind." She looked at me and I could sense she wanted me to elaborate. "I promise I'll explain some of my inner turmoil tonight. At your house?" She smiled brightly and skipped her next two steps.
"Totally! I have stuff I wanna tell you about too. Promise me you'll come over right after school. I don't even want you to go home because I know you'll find a reason to stay there." I unhooked our arms and opened the class room door.
"I promise. I really need your opinion, I'm not backing out of this one." She slid past me and walked to her seat. I hoped that after I told her about Alex she'd still be this happy to be my friend.