This is dedicated to the Wiki.
But not Alex.
This is dedicated to Katelin, for being able to put up with her heartlessness- I always wondered how you did it, and what you saw in her.
This is dedicated to Jamers and Jessica, for being amazing. Thank you both for being there.
This is dedicated to Rosie, Maleia and Becca, for being my sisters.
This is dedicated to Montego, because no one argues like you do, and I do care about you. Even if you're a liar.
This is dedicated to William, you're amazing. Don't let anything crush your dreams.
This is dedicated to Jason and Ashley and Fyre. You're all leaders. Don't let anything drag you down. Smile, and we'll all smile with you.
This is dedicated to gabby. Love you.
This is dedicated to Red. You're amazing, awesome, and my words fail me here. You always manage to make my day. Thank you for creating a wonderful place for us.


We were always happy.

Laughingsadsmilingangry
annoyedteasingsmirkinggrinning

In the end, always h a p p y

but then there was secrecy

secrecy

such a dark, angry word

whispered in the shadows, hiding, severing friendships

cutting
through
BONDS

it destroyed .us.

And I never knew. I never, ever knew.

All that was going on
behindmyback

But I . ., a whisper in my ear, the rustling of the wind

[ something's not right ]

I found out a little bit of what was going on. And even then you couldn't tell me.

angry
sad
alone

[ why? ]

Always that question.

Was I not trustworthy enough?
Too mean for you?

Mean?
I'm not mean.
All it took was one snarky comment
and I am labelled so.

Thenyou were arguing.

About what I am and what I am not.
I was right there,

[ can't you see me? ]
[ can't you hear me? ]

My voice, lost in the wind

and it's like I no
l

o

n

g

e

r
exist to you anymore.

All this time, it was going on behind my back,

and you
never
thought
to
tell
me.

When I find out, however, it's too late.

And it leaves me wondering
whether it was actually real or not.

What I once had is lost,
and I don't know who to trust

I am like a prized possession to you,
paraded before your friends,
judged and criticized.

And then, the final word comes from her mouth,
she who I thought was my ally, once upon a time
and the .decision. is made

[and I am cast away ]

A rose, trampled on the ground
And you pretend I
.don't.
e

x

i

s

t

After all, who am I really anyway?

Nobody
Nothing
Just a speck of dust in the distance

And it seems like nothing ever really mattered anymore

Because we never knew each other

Ever.

And when the time comes

[ do you know her ]
[ weren't you once with her ]

that condemning word comes from your m o u t h
and in one swift motion, that one second in a t-h-o-u-s-a-n-d years
changes the fate of two lives
as you open your lips wide and say

[ NO ]

There is crushing silence.

S/h/a/t/t/e/r/i/n/g silence.

But I do not turn and tear and sob and flee,
because I'm STRONGER than that.
STRONGER than you all are.

And in the sidelines is her again
The one who is better than I am
You trust her morethanme

She is clapping
smiling
she goes to you and

[ I can't watch it anymore ]

Now I do flee
and run away

You cry to me [comeback]
it sounds so heartfelt
compassionate
like you really, really cared
onceuponatime

But what we once had is lost,
and I don't care anymore
nothing matters

And now it's the other way around and I'm .condemning. you
F a R a W a Y
with that one single word from my lips
such a simple word, so many meanings
only
3

[ THREE ]

letters

I watch your back as you turn
flee
I smile coldly, and my heart is frozen

Butonceuponatime
we could have been.