My Life Now

Things have gotten dark and desperate
I always wanted this but you take it away
Take away the things that keeps my heart beating
My chest swelling with oxygen
Take it all away and be with him...
I hope it all works out
As you play house with our daughter
And she barely knows her father
We became statistics
And I became a check...
I'll miss her biggest moments...
But that does'nt matter to you...
You want him to be the one she takes her first steps to...
Hell probably be the first to hear her words with you...
You left me in the second month...
I havent seen you since, and yet i have...
Every night in my dreams your there...
Yet i awake to an empty bed...
I should be there...
I should be the one kissing your pregnant stomach and whispering words to my daughter...
Not sitting alone folding clothes hoping ill see her enough for her to wear them...
My heart is more than broken, im far more than betrayed...
I love you with all my heart more than any man ever will...
Period no man will have the love I do...
Amazingly I harbor no hatred and I hope that's not stupid of me...
I want my family, I need my family...
This can't be real, this isn't my life now...
Wellbutrin helps to kill depression and anxiety,
But no medication can ever kill the way I feel
Because the way I feel kills me...
But I guess this is it...
I will dream of my family while he has it...
The thought of that kills me more than I can ever put into words but...
This is it, this is my life now...