I am that girl who always gets straight A's.

I am that girl who is called smart.

I am that girl who everyone wants to copy homework from.

Smart, bright, independent.

I'm always called that.

Why do I not feel smart?

Why?

I am that girl who is nice to everyone and close to no one.

I am that girl everyone goes to for advice, for help.

I am that girl who's always there, somewhere.

Kind, punctual, dependable.

I'm not nice. I'm not reliable.

Stop calling me that.

Stop calling me that.

I am that lonely, quiet girl in the back of the classroom.

I am that girl who lies awake at night, every night.

I am that girl who smiles and lies.

It's okay.

I'm okay...

I am tired of it.

Sick of it.

Utterly, completely sick of saying I'm okay when I'm not.

Always pretending.

Pretending.

Am I not a kid?

Do I not deserve a childhood?

Why don't Mommy and Dad care about me?

Why am I hit?

Why am I ridiculed?

Why am I unworthy because I was born female?

Why?

Why?

No more.

I don't need this.

I don't need to take their shit because they're too close-minded to love me.

I understand now.

It's not me. It's them.

Their heart isn't big enough to hold all of me.

I am standing up.

I'm picking up my pieces.

I will no longer be a faceless nobody in the sea of millions of them.

I will no longer suffer my silence.

My voice should be heard.

Because I matter.

We all matter.

Don't take others' stubbornness, bitterness, destroy your heart.

Love.

It's what we're meant to do.

To be ourselves.

I may have lost myself,

But I'm getting there; I'm going to find myself.

Out of all those babies that could have been, you were born.

You are special.

Don't let anybody tell you otherwise.

Don't change for anyone.

No matter how much you care for them or think you care about them,

It's not worth it.

They're not worth it.

Be yourself.

You are beautiful.

Don't let others' standards of worth affect you.

Life doesn't last forever, you know?

Live it right.


Sorry if I don't quite make sense at some point or at all. My mind was...