To punish you,

Or to punish me?

I'm not so sure anymore.

They said there's one reason.

When I'm upset.

When I feel hollow.

When I want to punish someone else.

Can't be all?

Can't I do it because I feel like I'm empty, no emotions at all?

And then the next day because I want to forget feeling angry? To escape my emotions?

I forget the reason the second that blade touches my skin.

Because I don't want to remember it.

I don't need to remember it.

I just know that it's gone.

And for a little while,

I can be happy again.

A poem touching on the subject of self harm.