Tired and lonely and left here to rot
The preacher's still preaching and I am distraught
No respect and no meaning to anything left
There's no one to trust, my life now bereft
Of somewhere to run to, there's nowhere to hide
Alone now at home, but if I swallow my pride
I could hold back the anger and fight the disgust
Pretend I'm not bothered by what we've "discussed"
Because no one ever listens to a word that I say
Everyone tells me "I'll know better someday"
For now I'm a child, never mind what I've done
Not the places I've been, the respect that I've won.
No one would ever come looking to me
For I clearly know nothing, yes, now I can see
It's just like being scolded when I was a girl
I clearly can't handle the real fucked up world.
So I'll be angry for now and tomorrow pretend
That tomorrow I'm fine because you are a dear friend
And I'll go to bed crying,and I'll pray she won't see
But it's only a lost selfish bitch, it's just me.