A Rat in the Walls

Stairs

58 of 'em

Stars

Millions of 'em

I really truly don't belong anywhere.

She's hanging on you

Like a string of pearls

Remember when

I was your girl?

My misfit nature is my cross to bear

And I'm feeling so small

Like A Rat in the Walls

As I'm hearing the voices

But knowing this will never be mine

I'm hiding in the middle

Of what I can't have and what I need

But oh, this will never be mine

I really truly don't belong anywhere.

There's something in your eyes

I can see it without even looking

Because I remembered it without even trying

It's saying "Stop trying

Go back

Turn around

This isn't your world"

So I turn back

I get scared

I go

Because that's something I'm good at

It's what was born to do

I was born scared

In these walls

I really truly don't belong anywhere.

And as a last resort

I press my ear to the door

I'm silent

But you never are,

Are you?

And I want to be on the other side of this heavy door

Because oh, what a difference four inches of wood

And a handle can make

What a difference taking sides can make

But I should go

Because you never told me so

I love the lack of obligation when I can't see your face

It's like everything's

Been erased

I walk back down

Because down is what I'm good at

Hearing voices float around this room

This tomb

They say some people are just born with it

But what if you're born without it?

I'm scared because this isn't where I'm supposed to be

Flowers just don't match all black

Unless it's a funeral

Maybe it's mine

I'm done trying to understand

And I'm done with your eyes

And when I hit the bottom

I'm scared again

This isn't what I had in mind

This isn't what I planned for

And suddenly 58 isn't enough

Because I'm running out of hiding places

Like A Rat in the Walls

Back up

I really truly don't belong anywhere.