Everything reminds me of you.
Everything that I do. Every person that I see. Every breath that I inhale through these raspy old lungs. I remember you. Everything reminds me of you. Every meal that I eat. Every song that crosses paths in my warped mind. Every dream I dare to dream. Every bone in my body aches, reminding me of you.
Escape is no option.
And even if it were, I'm not sure I'd dare take it.
Everything that I think about reminds me of you. And if I forget you, then I have nothing to live for.
It drives me insane, that everywhere I go I remember you. It's like you follow me around, a lost ghost searching for some solace in me. But I offer you none. I have no solace for my own satisfaction. I lack solace as I lack sanity.
I haven't left the apartment in weeks. Everything has become a mess. But I fear leaving, that I'd forget you, and then I would be nothing again. So I stay there, every day for hours among hours.
And today realized, that the only thing that remind me of you the most; is the smell of your rotting corpse hanging in my closet.