I stand and wait
Annoyed is the word that would most politely describe my mood
Everyone keeps shouting obscenities
And I just want to tune it out
I don't like the words
They bother me
They aren't appropriate for school
I work up the courage to say something
"Excuse me," I say to the person using the vile language
They turn around and give me a cold look
"Could you please not use those words around me?" I finish
The words come out much braver than I feel
I was hoping they would stop
But of course it didn't go as planned
Instead they begin to yell at me using as many vile words as they can
Something along the lines of
"You don't matter, you're just a little girl and I can say what I want."
But with much more malice behind the words
I want to say something but can't find any more courage
As if those words weren't enough,
They tell me
"Mind your own business and go read a book."
I don't think and I say something that sounds idiotic
"Don't insult books!"
I get on the bus and they keep on with the vile language
I close my eyes tight, cover my ears, and cry silently
I can still hear the words
And I can still hear the laughter
I think of a million things to say
But I don't say them
I just don't have enough confidence
I almost miss my stop
I don't and I get off
And dread the next day that I have to listen to it
All over again
A/N: Today I had to ride the bus and I was sick of the language the kids on my bus use. I've never said snything to them before because seriously think about it if I can't even bring myself to confront someone I was at one point close friends with do you think I can easily stand up to a complete stranger?
Anyway I finally decided to say something and that resulted in me being yelled at for the next ten or twenty minutes. So, today just wasn't all that great.