"Why do you smile?"

Someone asked me

And I thought long and hard for a time

Because I am worthless

Because I'm alone

(These were what first came to mind)

Because I cry in the shower

Each night before bed

And I scream at a boy who's not there.

Because nobody cares

That I'm broken and hurt

Because when I cry no one can hear

Because I want to die

Because no one should know

Lest my face give away my charade

Because when I was young

I spent my time alone

And it was by myself that I played

Because I hate myself

For the things that I do

Maybe I'll go away for a while

Thus I finish my thought

And I say "I am glad"

And I look up at them and I smile.