i waited.

for months,

i waited.

i waited

with a broken heart

and scarred thighs

and wrists.

i waited.

waited for you.

waiting for you

to come back.

i prayed to the god

i dont think exists,

i whispered your name

when i couldnt sleep.

i smiled when

i thought of you.

i waited.

and you came back.

you came back and

tell me

that youre leaving again.

next time?

just dont fucking bother

because now

im crushed.

crushed once