I can't stop.

The pain feels too good.

Though my hands shake,

The blades are steady

As they cut me apart

And allow me to heal.

There's one second of regret

Before the numbness settles in

And the sweet escape from

My broken heart's ragged beating

Is like a drug to my brain.

I can't stop.

I feel as though I've failed them

But the fire feels like sunshine

On my wounded heart.

I am addicted to this

Rush of blood.

Pain that makes sense.

Pain I can handle.

And I can't stop.