Only God knows
That I dream of death,
Of the final breath
That will send me far away
From what I know,
From what I want to know,
And from what I
Never want to know.
Only God knows
That I want a life,
Miles away from
The skeletal knife
Of the family I know
That is lodged inside
The cage of ribs
That homes a heart.
Only God knows
That I love a girl,
An angel of light
That hides in the dark.
She hides in her secrets
That none of us know,
Of the loneliness
And days in the snow.
Only God knows
What my mother does not.
He knows of the scars,
Invisible to eyes,
But known to the heart
And the mind that has
Been shaken and shattered
To far to be repaired.
Only God knows
That I tell my life
To the friends I hold
So dear to my heart.
One day they'll be gone,
And I'll be alone,
But still they shall know
Of their good broken friend.
Only God knows
That I write these songs,
Not just about life,
But about love.
He knows that I want
To love with my heart,
To hold someone close
And never be apart.
Only God knows
That I want to die.
I want to hide
Alone inside.
But my mind
Is cluttered with words
That I share with the world,
But not to myself.
Only God knows
That my mind is a mess,
A frazzled scatter plot
Of dreams I can't access.
I hope that one day
When I am alive
I'll know what my mind
Tried to tell me all along.