Is this Hell, I can't tell

what's real from my dreams.

Close my eyes, try to die

harder than it seems.

Seen enough, call my bluff

where did this go wrong?

Barrel sight, end tonight

freedom almost won..

From this pain, and the shame

watched you fade away.

Total void, has destroyed

all my will to stay.

Where is God, unheard sobs

carry through the wind.

All I've bled, dare not tread

back to where I've been.

Hate this place, tie the lace

of which is my noose.

Go away, memories

that is my excuse.

Nightmares race, hide my face

from those I hold dear.

If they knew, had a clue

never shed a tear..