I sat at the park
and I watched as
David and Caleb
long-boarded down the
sunny hill.
I watched as
David smiled,
the innocence
he lost
once again
on his lips.
I watched as he
raced with Caleb,
as he laughed and
was the kid he is
at heart
like he deserves
to be.
I watched as he
fell, but he
got right back up,
that smile
still on his
lips.
I watched as
Caleb looked at me
and waved,
smiled and laughed,
as he almost fell.
I watched as
David was happy.
I watched as
he didn't look tired,
wasn't worried I
was going to die,
wasn't scared
I would leave him.
I watched as
he was the boy
Jake grew to love,
to depend on,
to need.
I watched them
laugh and
fall and
be children,
and I smiled when
all I felt was
pain.
I took away
his childhood,
his innocence,
when I tried
to take
my life.
I smiled though.
I loved watching them
have fun.
I loved watching them
fall and
laugh and
wave at me
as I waved back.
I sat at the park
and I watched as
David and Caleb
long-boarded down the
sunny hill.
I watched as
David smiled,
the innocence
he lost
once again
on his lips.