an; first time trying my hand at poetry.

trigger warning: spousal abuse, bulimia


I prayed to God a few times
When I was a child
And that's why
I'm an atheist

One time was when
Momma was on the ground crying
Because he was hitting her again
"No"
And I begged God to make him stop
But then he didn't

Another was when
The kids in school
Were chanting that awful truthful word
"Fat"
And I begged God to make them stop
But then they didn't

The last was when
I held onto my porcelain throne
My hands shaking and my throat burning
"Purge"
And I begged God to make me stop
But then I didn't

I prayed to God a few times
When I was a child
And that's why
I'm an atheist