A/N: selfharm, bisexuality, whining, angst


My sister's dying inside

Andher arms look so much worse than mine


And you don't know

Because I won't tell you

Because why should I upset you


I'm so afraid of failure, I can barely breathe

And all this work makes me so tired


And you don't know

Because I won't tell you

Because it stress's YOU out


My family makes me feel unimportant

And lazy and whiny and shallow


And you don't know

Because I won't tell you

Because you do it too


And I want to publish my poems

And show off my work


And you don't know

Because I won't tell you

Because you're too busy with your book that I have always helped you with


And I'm bisexual and struggling

With so many questions for you


And you don't know

Because I won't tell you

Because you make so afraid to ask


And I'm leaving school

And I'm feeling alone


And you don't know

Because I won't tell you

Because you make me think you're angry at me for my decision


I'm scared of them shunning me

Because I'm not like them


And you don't know

Because I won't tell you

Because you might be the same


And I wonder if I'm completely wrong

Or if you think I'm lost


And you don't know

Because I won't tell you

Because I don't want to hear you say yes


And I feel like you don't care about me

Because you never ask, even though you know I don't say


And you don't know

Because I won't tell you

Because I don't want you to think I'm weak


And my parents fight

And don't seem to realize how much it hurts me


And you don't know

Because I won't tell you

Because I'm afraid you won't understand


And I'm still fighting not to cut

And it's always there every day


And you don't know

Because I won't tell you

Because it's not your problem anymore


And you're angry at me for being upset

And for not talking to you


And you don't know

Because I'm afraid

And you barely seem to care


And this is instead of a razor

This is instead of a scar

And you don't know

Because I won't tell you