Here We Go Again

Here we go again

I pause

As I walk into the room

You're there

Looking so beautiful.

It hurts

That I can't tell you so

Avert my eyes

And talk to someone else.

.

Here we go again

I smile

It's shy, as though I

Don't know

If I have the right

To smile

At catching your eye.

Look down

And try to slow my heart.

.

Here we go again

I breathe

Slowly as you talk

To me

Brain racing through

The calm

That graces my face

For you

It's all for you.

.

Here we go again

The hours

Of sitting so very close

So close

But not quite touching

Not quite

Aware of how every inch

Of me

Is tingling from proximity.

.

Here we go again

I sigh

Why does everything

I know

About myself

Dissolve

Whenever you

Walk by?

I just shrink back, out of sight.

.

Here we go again

I flinch

At the slightest brush

Of hands.

Or my stomach flips

When you

Breathe a curse out loud.

I think

Of how pathetic I am.

.

Here we go again

At night

I whisper to the dark

I know

You cannot hear but

I like

To think there is maybe

Something

Anything

Anything at all

That makes you think of me

When all

Of this world reminds me

Of you.