i tried to write the words
that were gripping my throat
but the pills doctor told me to swallow
made my hands go numb
and my fingers
couldnt grip the pen
one last time

my time has come
and im so very sorry
i couldnt say goodbye

oh darling
keep my casket closed
i dont want you to see
the bruises on my neck
or the cuts on my wrists
that blossomed as i took my last breath
i want you to remember me as i was
not what ive become