do you know
what it feels like
to have your creation
your protection
turn you into
something hideous?
monstrous?
something not even human?
To turn into something
so far from what you want to be
that you're not even sure
you can go back?
into something
that you can't even recognize?
to feel so lost
and hopeless
that you keep going in circles
in vain hope
that
maybe
just maybe
you
might
get
it
right