Your mercy is crushing me

I don't understand

How is this mercy?

I apologized so many times

But I am worthless under your great might

My mind and heart are shattered with shame

Because of what I have been taught in your name

If you are really so loving

If you can hear me now

Please tell me you love me

That I'll be okay when it's time to bow

I'm scared and I'm crying

The fear is too much

I was told to only hope

But hoping hasn't seemed to be enough