Does it even matter when nobody else cares?

Going though erosion, the pain and the wear?

I act like I am strong, but my heart is still weak.

I'm at the peak of my existence, and I'm only 15!

But age is just a number. Right? I guess so,

But the hole inside my heart is at least 8 years old.

*flashback*

Hobo in the attic? Wait, that's just Dad.

Backstabbing friends, they made me really glad

For while, then a smile becomes a fractured frown.

I'm down, and around are all the crazy ones.

But I'm crazy as well after a bunch death:

An uncle, distant cousin, a stranger as an aunt.

My true father passed, not the man upstairs,

Cause the attic man never seemed to care like Al did.

That's when it hits~ I'm all alone in this.

Dad's finally gone and mom's got her fix.

Is this really real? Is this all a trick?

Cause, God, I'm tired crying and being pissed.

I'm lost all around.

I can hide in the night

'til light comes around.

I'm lost all around.

I will hide in the night

Until I go down.

Can they even notice that I'm still alive?

I'm just another shadow in this black-and-white hive

Do words really hurt if you don't know what they mean?

Do you cry any less? Do you still shout and scream?

Looking back on all of this, I know that they're right:

I'm an emo book worm who they would like to smite.

But now I can see that I'm not as bad as them.

I'm not a plastic, a whore, a nerd, nor a gem.

I hide in the corner, away from their words

That tie down like cords, like a cage to a bird.

I'm afraid to be who I really am,

Cause criticizing me is always joy to them.

So, hopefully by the end of this song

I will hopefully be truly forever gone.

I'm lost all around.

I can hide in the night

Until I go down.

I'm lost all around.

I will fight in the night

Until I go down.

Even to this day, suicidal memories haunt me.

Back when I shattered without any stitches.

When fighting through the days that burn like hell flame

Feels like there's nothing left to loose or to gain;

I can see that I'm alive, there's proof on my arms

From endless days of hiding and endless nights of harm.

But even though I'm still a play-thing at school-

A troll, all alone in a war full of whores-

I know that there are people who are worth living for;

The girl like a sister, the girl who I love.

So, screw all of you, think you're all that, like,

"Swag, swag, suck my dick, bitch," and all of that

I'm gonna make it out alive if it kills me,

And I will be there for the ones who really need me.

I'm lost all around.

I can hide in the fight

Until I go down.

I'm lost all around.

I will drowned in the light

Until I go down.

I'm lost all around.

I will drowned in the night

Until I go down.

I'm lost, then I'm found.

I can drowned in the light,

But I won't go down!…

(Go down~~~)

I can drowned in the light,

But I won't go down!