Disclaimer: Since I'm sure no one reads this little bit, I DON'T OWN MOST OF THESE CHARACTERS OTHERWISE GABE WOULD BE MY PERSONAL MASSEUSE/MALE STRIPPER, MRS. GOODMAN WOULD BE MY ENTERTAINER, PHIL WOULD SING ME TO SLEEP, NATE'S DAD WOULD BE MY BUTLER AND NATALIE WOULD DO MY HOMEWORK.

WARNING: If sexual things bother you, here's a summary of the chapter: "ERIN STOP BEING SO HORNY."

It's gonna be good,

G-O-O-D, good!

It's gonna be great,

fucking great.

January 24

I'm almost sixteen, and so many things happened that I'm shaking still from the overload of excitement. I feel like an adult. I've heard some people online talk about how one minute you're somewhat innocent and the next you're sexually charged and things are happening.

I've only ever heard about guys getting boners in class for no reason. Thankfully, I don't have a dick, but it may as well have been that obvious. See, in the middle of AP History, I started moving around in my seat because suddenly I was really tingly… down there… and I couldn't do anything about it because I was in class and my teacher doesn't let anyone go to the bathroom.

In my defense, we were watching a movie and the lead guy was really hot and shirtless the entire hour. And covered in sweat. And there was an almost sex scene. Anyway, I started moving around very obviously. I was squirming like there was something in my pants. From the way that some of the kids in the back of the class snickered, I looked like I was masturbating. But no matter what I did; if I ignored it or shifted in my seat, it wouldn't go away.

I have no excuse for what I did after the bell rang. At that point, I was more than willing to jump the bones of the first person who was willing to, so when a senior wrestler led me to the nearest supply closet under the excuse of 'Helping me with my Social Studies… problem', I physically couldn't say no.

I only started to get nervous when he closed the door and the room smelt like ammonia and dirty socks. It was dark, but he kissed me roughly and left me no room to say anything at all. His hands were innocent at first, just kind of staying on my waist or hips, but then he grabbed my ass (which was really close to where I was aching, so…) and I let him. He moved his hands to my boobs and I let him. He touched me under the clothes and he was really clumsy about it. I don't even know his name, but it felt good despite all the bad factors.

For a first make-out session, it wasn't too bad. I have no doubt that I would have let him go farther, but the bell rang and I had a mandatory chorus practice. I almost feel guilty, but at the same time, I don't.

January 27

Oh my God. This is not okay but at the same time I can't complain because…. Oh dear lord.

I was going to do a long-story-short sort of thing, but I want to savor every minute of this memory, as creepy as it is. Because this may be the farthest I'll ever get with him. Ever.

I hadn't seen Gabe yet. He wasn't waiting up in my room like he usually did just to say hi before he either retreated or went about bothering Phil. So I went up to the attic.

I suppose I should clear something up: I have a remarkable talent at being invisible. I can walk almost silently and melt into the shadows. Sometimes I'll raise my hand during roll call and the teacher will count me absent. Yes, it's that bad.

So when I came up, he had no warning. I looked around the bend and there. On the bed. Was Gabe. I think you know where this is going. He was jacking off and although he had most of his clothes still on (his boxers and pants were pulled to his knees), it was a very… interesting… and welcome sight.

I turned away fairly quickly, I'm not that weird that I'm going to sit and watch my crush while he masturbates. I locked myself in the bathroom, though, and I discovered what I can do with the handle on my razor. It wasn't quite enough to get rid of the freaking ache, but it was close enough.

One more thing: I haven't seen very many dicks (my roommate had a porn problem at the asylum, so I saw some), but from what it looked like he was big. Yes.

…. And now I'm going back into the bathroom.

January 29

I think this is the first time I've written so many times so close together. Anyway, Gabe gave me the best present for my birthday. I'm sixteen as of today, and although I'm pretty sure he hasn't aged in that weird way of things, if he was 18 when I was 12, then he's supposed to be 22, or almost that.

This whole thing just hurts my head.

ANYWAY. The kiss:

Phil's present was ignoring me for the day. My mom managed to buy me a cookie and I blew out a candle on it. Sadly, that's about the most I've gotten from my so-called parents since before Dad died. Nate gave me a giant card and a balloon that I had to throw away before I had to watch Phil do it.

After I ate my cookie, I came upstairs to Gabe sitting on my bed and reading the first Harry Potter book. He was a good two-thirds of the way in when I told him I was there by saying, "Good book, huh?"

He started at my voice before shrugging. "I guess. I don't see what all the fuss is about, though. They're only okay."

"Are you kidding me?" I had to ask. "You've never read it?"

"Nope." He said.

"Natalie?"

"Nope."

"Huh." I was a little perturbed by this, so I made a hand signal to tell him to keep reading. He chuckled before throwing the book down and turning to me.

"You didn't think I would forget, did you?" He asked. Then he stood up and came over to me. I knew what he was going to do before he did it, and my heart was beating so loudly inside my chest. He cradled my face with his hand (apparently that myth about the hands and guys'…. GOD ERIN STOP BEING SO HORNY) and kissed me.

One hand was on my waist, and he didn't move it. He didn't try to use tongue or anything, and when I tried to deepen the kiss he pulled back and said "Happy Birthday."

Then he was gone.

Soooo this story has taken a sexual turn... Warning: It won't end here. :) Nobody got that cookie last chapter, which sucks because now I shall eat it... nomnomnom.

HOW ABOUT THIS IF YOU READ MY OTHER STORY (WHICH HASN'T EVEN BEEN LOOKED AT ONCE... I CHECKED THE VIEWS) AND DROP A REVIEW YOU WILL GET THREE COOKIES.