I Don't

I don't want you here

I don't need you

Your presence is suffocating

Why can't you see?

Unread texts

A chime here

A chime there

I switch my phone off

Give me space.

I don't want you here

I don't want to make you smile

You ask me how my day was

Nothing much has changed since yesterday

And yet, you continue to ask

Even when I tell you that it's all the same

You say you think it'll change

Don't worry

I'll tell you if it does.

I don't want you here

I don't want to respond

You follow me everywhere

You're like a cute little dog

But now I want to leave the house without you

And you bite my pant leg, keeping me close

I want to get away sometimes

But you just don't seem to understand.

I know I said I don't want you here

That I don't need you

In actuality, I lied.

I want you here

I need you

I want to make you smile

I want to respond

You shower me with kindness

You gift me things I don't deserve

Your care is always there

You say I'm the most beautiful girl

You're too good for me, too good.

I want you here

I need you

I want to make you smile

I want to respond

But not that much.

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