Nervous energy,

That's the word that I was thinking of.

That's the feeling of wanting to

speak, but being too uncomfortable

to ask it. That's wanting to write,

but being unable to make your

fingertips not shake enough to

form legible letters and words.

That's hearing the things

in your mind and wanting for

them to appear on paper or

in sounds, but only being

able to let the near quiet of

rustling paper, crunching

apples, and tapping keys fill

the quiet- along with

the creaks of the band's

practice room.