Drowning

If I'd just look up

I'd see the sky is bright and blue and

beautiful

yet I slide under where

it's deep and dark and

cold

where every breath is a scream

and tears are washed away

lost in a sea

I am drowning

drowning

and I know that I should

reach up, try to

save myself and

I could if

I wanted to

but I'm too

tired.