Looking back

It was defiance

Strong, fierce, proud

Like the roar of a snow leopard

Feeling far from extinction.

.

It was hope

Hope for change and growth

Maybe I would have fell

In an everlasting sleep

.

Sleeping beauty seemed to find her happy ending.

Perhaps I would have, too.

If it wasn't for the car

Speeding through red lights

.

Or the doctor.

Prodding my every side.

Sniggering at yet another

Failed attempt.

.

His face, like every other

Stranger I seem to see.

Or, in my case, they see me

As useless. Different.

.

Sometimes I forget

It even happened.

Happy days where I feel drunk

Or bursting with spirits through my brain.

.

I stay away from him.

Him, I call it. Just him.

He is the feeling of pain

Shaped as a person.

.

But not really a person.

A thought, daydream

Yet it is far more

Than that will ever be.


So. That just happened.