A/N: Random poem late at night, reflects on a friendship that went sour through the years, I guess I'm just frustrated because it took me so long to move past it and now the moron (well 1 of them from the situation, anyways) showed back up and is being his weird self bothering me all over again :( UGH. Since I really just want to punch him in the face for even thinking he has the right to talk to me (I don't sound to arrogant do I lol?), I figured anger usually sparks better writing in me so I took a shot writing this. It's certainly not my best but at least it's something, and I'm sure he'll appreciate not having a black eye ;)
It's been 7 years since we were friends,
Since we could all laugh together
7 years ago, I still believed we all had each other's best interests at heart.
Everything was so charming back then.
It's been 6 years since our world was tossed upside down,
When everything was crushed
When all of us were hurt and messed up
And it seemed the whole world was a disaster.
6 years ago, I didn't know what to think.
5 years have passed since the hardest year of my life
When I hit rock bottom and I'm sure you did too.
I hated life, I hated myself, I hated you.
I had never felt such emptiness,
I never was used to being numb and lifeless.
5 year have gone since those days of darkness and despair.
It's been 4 years since I started getting over you,
Since I could start to comprehend the pain and move on.
I still ached at the sight and thought of you,
Always wondering what life would be like if things had gone differently.
It's been 4 years since I could begin to let go.
It's been 3 years since I was able to start enjoying life again
When in those blessed moments I could forget you.
Brief though they were, I cherished those minutes.
I had started to pick up the pieces of my broken heart.
3 years have passed since I started to mend myself.
It's been 2 years since I finally stopped flinching at the mention of your name,
Since I could finally occupy my time with things other than distant memories.
I barely think about you anymore,
You left a hole in my life but I've found other things to fill it with.
It's been 2 years, and I've managed to find closure.
It's been 1 year and I don't think about you at all anymore
I don't care either way anymore.
I don't love you or hate you,
I am indifferent to you.
It's hard for me to even try to feel anything towards you, good or bad.
It's a new experience, and I love that this story has an ending.
It's been a year since I've realized this whole mess was a blessing,
Because it made me a stronger, better person.
It's been 3 months since I saw your face again for the first time in 6 years,
And I couldn't believe you'd actually come back.
I simply smile and nod and keep moving,
I just don't care enough to talk to you.
Funny how 5 years ago I used to run through millions of imaginary conversations with you,
And now it's just not worth it to me.
I don't understand why you're back here again.
It's been 3 days since you tried to rekindle our friendship,
And it sparked a fire within me I don't think you'd like to tempt.
Somewhere along the way, you've obviously mistaken my politeness for friendliness.
And I won't hesitate to put you back in your place.
You have no right in my life.
Don't you dare think otherwise.
I won't go through the insanity again, I can't.
I love my life now, without you, and I won't allow you to interfere.
It's too late, find someone else to obsess over.
I am done with you.