I thought of you last night and my heart skipped a beat.

I dreamt of the way you laugh

and the way you say my name

the way you hug me tightly

and the way you speak to me that makes me feel human.

And then I thought of how I felt

when you said my name

and I couldn't help but to smile.

The way I squeezed you back

and wanted to cry because you spoke to me

in a way that nobody else can;

a way that makes me forget my anxieties and fears.

But then I dreamt of how i'll never be in your arms

how i'm just a friend to you

how you speak to everyone the way you speak to me.

I thought of how far away you live

and knew it would never work.

I thought about how it's been a year since i've last seen you

and how it's been a year since you hugged me

and how it's been a year since I last felt human.