I thought of you last night and my heart skipped a beat.
I dreamt of the way you laugh
and the way you say my name
the way you hug me tightly
and the way you speak to me that makes me feel human.
And then I thought of how I felt
when you said my name
and I couldn't help but to smile.
The way I squeezed you back
and wanted to cry because you spoke to me
in a way that nobody else can;
a way that makes me forget my anxieties and fears.
But then I dreamt of how i'll never be in your arms
how i'm just a friend to you
how you speak to everyone the way you speak to me.
I thought of how far away you live
and knew it would never work.
I thought about how it's been a year since i've last seen you
and how it's been a year since you hugged me
and how it's been a year since I last felt human.