o Lord
why am i here if
A L L
i feel is wrath and shame?

nomercynosympathynosorrow

just the words of an actor
and a liar addicted to her

own flawless hiss

maybe
im even lying to myself...
but the bells of deception ring too sweet, im hYpNoTiZeD
with these wonderfully pretty pathological lies
and i cant tell what's my life no more

why's it so hard to tell the Truths of the afterlife but so easy/peasy to tells the Lies of this life

it^s so weird to ask if you^re a sinner or a saint and wonder if yourenowhereinbetween
i'm running for my King but sometimes
i think i'm falling to hell

honestybraverychastityjoy...,etc,etc,etc
could be battle cries
or things ive failed, or am on the road to

"\but joy is an attitude not an emotion/"
—/so why's it so hard to show the former when you're not sure if you have any of the latter\?

i'm a-playing-a-tightrope across the abyss even though it's a

hard

fall

down

.

pleasepleasespeaktomeGOD
remind me
who
i
am

to you

show me joypeacelovefaithagain

or at least cut free
my tongue

It's Bothering Me