I shouldn't

shed my tears

Or let my

emotions take control

I used to

think

I used to

dream

The fairy tales

we read as children

The captive princess

waiting for her love

I used to

imagine

I used to

feel

I always

loved the princess

Her elegance

and strength

I used to

smile

I used to

laugh

I wanted

to be that prince

To save her

from the clutches of evil

I used to

live

I used to

breathe

But I was

afraid of the consequence

Society ready

to kill me off

I used to

wish

I used to

love

So I hid

in the shadows

They became

my only friends

I used to

stand

I used to

run

No one

knew the truth

The lies I spewed

tasted like acid then

I used to

be free

I used to

sleep

I wanted to

be that prince

Wielding a blade

and laughing heroically

I used to

have fun

I used to

let go

Will I ever

be good enough?

Will you ever

accept my truth?

I used to

see you

I used to

be clean

I feel dirty

and wicked

So I'll just crawl

beneath my sheets

I used to

be fine

I used to

not cry

But I tremble

with a passing thought;

What if I am

the monster to be destroyed?

I used to

love her

But I was forced

to give it up