My Life, Or Your Love
The look on his face, I could tell he wasn't pleased to see me here. Maybe I shouldn't have come. What was I doing here? Did I really think he'd walk over to me and tell me it was all a mistake? That he'd been out of his mind to let me go? That he loved me?
Then I saw Courtney go over to him and ask him to dance. I watched as he said yes and she led him over to the dance floor. That's when I decided to do the whole party thing. I asked everyone I could think of saving Daniel for last.
I walked over to where they were dancing. He just pretended like he didn't see me. Fine by me, two could play at this game. "Hey, Court," I said smiling at her. "I decided to have a party of my own, I was thinking at the end of this week, and you have to be there." I then turn to Daniel and pretend like I just noticed him, "Oh, hi Daniel. Sorry, you can come too, if you want".
Courtney smiled and excepted for the both of them. I could tell Daniel looked confused by my sudden idea to have a party. I have never thrown a party in my life. I go to parties, but never throw them.
I smiled and said that I'd let them both know what day of the week the party was going to be. I then left the party. I had a lot to do...
I made it home and started planning my party. I found it really hard to concentrate though. I just kept on thinking about Courtney and Daniel dancing together. No matter how hard I tried, I just couldn't get over him. I knew I was still in love with him.
It hurt seeing him with other girls. I tried making him jealous with other boys, including James Michaels, but it never seemed to work. Maybe he really was over me. James and Daniel have hated each other for years. I think that was partly because of me. James and Daniel have had crushes on me for years, but I chose Daniel.
Maybe it wasn't the smartest thing to go out with James, but he was my friend, and I had always liked him. Really, thinking back I'm not for sure why I chose Daniel over James. They are both cute, sweet, and caring. Both are great guys and any girl would be lucky to have either of them.
I was certainly lucky to have Daniel for as long as I did. When we were together I just knew, I was in the right place and with the right person. I truly thought we would be together forever. You know, that'd we'd go to prom together, grow up and get married, one day start a family, and finally die together. But I guess things change when you least expect them to.
I still remember the day he ended it. I will never forget the way he made me feel. He broke my heart. I don't know if he knows that, but he did. I felt like I must have done something wrong, I'm still not for sure.
He said it was just time to move on. That he didn't want to be tied down; he wanted a chance to date other people. That we should see what else is out there. I think I understand what he was saying, or maybe I just want to understand.
I knew there was a chance I would never get him back, and that I'd have to live with that. I thought I could handle that, whenever I thought about it, but then I'd see him with another girl. It was like I had the air knocked out of me, I couldn't breathe anymore. That's when I really realized just how much I love and needed him. I knew I was screwed.
All day, everyday that week, people kept coming up to me and asking when my party was going to be. I tried not to get annoyed, but it was really hard. I did pretty well, till I walked around the corner on my way to English, and that's when I saw Daniel kissing Monica Jay Thomson.
My heart started pounding inside my chest. It felt like it would explode out of my chest and go flying across the room. I also felt a sharp pain where my heart was. You know how it feels when you have heartburn? Well it was like that, but ten times worse.
I just wanted to disappear to a dark and private corner and die. I hoped that Daniel would find me and feel horrible for what he'd been doing to me. But of course, this was just a daydream. I wasn't really dying, so there wouldn't be any body for Daniel to find, and he wouldn't feel bad, because he had no idea that he was tearing me up inside.
Tearing me up into tiny, little pieces, that'd never be found and put back together. Even if you could somehow find all of the pieces, it'd be impossible to put me back together again. Not only would it be impossible, but I don't know that I wanted to be put back together. The pain, though terrible, reminded me that I'd lost the only boy I'd ever loved.
I had seen Daniel with other girls before, and sure it hurt, but I'd never seen him this with a girl before. Untill this minute, I had never known such pain as this. I turned on my heel and walked in the opposite direction. I would not stand by, and be made a fool of.
I know this is short, but I just wanted to get the story going, to introduce you to the main plot. I will post the next chapter soon. Please leave a comment and let me know what you think. Thank you!