see: shaky hands and an unrelenting sense of dissociation, 11:12pm, 2016

things are moving too fast and i want to stop, i want to get off this spinning carousel.

i want to scream and yell for everything to just
stop stop stop.

it's never fair, is it? how much you want to change your situation
and make the unwanted feelings leave; but they are in you.
these feelings that make you feel shattered are the only things
that hold you together anymore.

but the ride continues, and you can scream and yell as long
as you want, but this hell will never end.