22 HAIKUS OF FEAR

I wrote these down for each working day of the month of June.

I will hopefully be performing them at an Open Mic at the Black Lion in Manchester. Part of an arts collective performance that deal with experimental platforms or EAC.

Some are puzzling subjective and personal to me and others easy to decipher. They are about what goes creeping through the insomniac nights or harsh surrealities in the cold light of day.

They say fears are personal, I like my fears, I think they suit my personality.

It would be easy to do 22 Haikus on happiness. But for me that would be showing off. But not showing the right dimension that fear can show. Maybe next time I will do 22 haikus on inner-peace or happiness. But for now:

They are the 22 haikus of fear for each working day in June.

1. MY TOWER BLOCK

Walking to high rise

The gap fearfully rising

Taking my light steps

2. SUFFOCATING NIGHTS

Body still creepy

Crawlies invisible pour

Pores in entangles

3. DEBTS

Financial cliff view

Chasm emptiness under

My feet barb wired

4. BUS FARE OR MACDONALDS

Cant go outside yet

Decision over finance

Keeps me hidden now

5. PROCRASTINATION

Fearful of failure

Near in all action evades

Hope for times elsewhere

6. FELONY DREAMS

Life behind bars nears

Holding on railing in cell

Breathe concrete walled in

7. GIRLFRIED

Life without herself

I have had my grief instance

No person to home

8. SUCCESS

Afraid of progress

Finally achieving goals

Doubtful vow portents

9. ENERGY

Days recharge obstructs

Omission of pattern plays

Chaos connections

10. LETTING GO

Letting items fall

Leaves on canopy linger

Gathering dust heap

11. FAMILY IN LONDON

I stall the call outs

Family friends acquaintance

For something to say

12. LIGAMENTS

Part body illness

Detection leads surgery

Tear imperfections

13. EX'S

Temptations assists

Re-imagining missed deeds

Just last Saturday

14. TEDIUM

Emotions shattered

Restless mind reaching dead end

Soul may fly away

15. SIBLING RIVALRY

Brother in dreams sees

Plans routines that are mine keep

Cannot break his face

16. AGING

Running tap feelings

Past events drops hard attack

Left barren dweller

17. 2ND GUESSING

Lie swimming free form

Thoughts fly until I wake there

Flapping waywardly

18. OVERTIME

Work non stop hours

Meshed gesticulating thoughts

Asylum dead end

19. PERFECTIONIST

Contemplating all

Angles outcomes possible

Classing courses right

20. NIGHTMARES

Biggest fear of all

Dying in my sleep a stroke

One less lived minute

21. CHARITY

Beggar asking me

For spare change I sneak quickly

Can't stay in one spot

22. OVERSEAS

My country under

Wars of application torn

Peace lay asunder

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